Feel The Wind

capek? penat? atau kalau kata anak muda sekarang, galau?



wah, itu hidup banget ituu..

justru itu yang namanya hidup



hidup tak cuma soal kebahagiaan.

semua terjadi di hidup ini.

tangis, tawa, senang, susah, air mata, pedih, benci, cinta, suka, sebel, gundah, pusing, pening, putus asa, bangkit, jatuh, berdiri, naik, turun, wah... kalau diterusin, tulisan ini nggak bakal selesai.



semuanya ada di hidup ini sayangg...



nah, kita manusia biasanya cuma ngeliat yang susah-susahnya aja. aku nggak nyalahin kamu, nggak sama sekali, aku tahu persis apa yang kamu rasain. kamu nggak tahu gimana bencinya aku sama diri sendiri karena nggak bisa berbuat banyak untuk kamu. aku cuma bisa ngasih surat ini. walaupun judulnya surat cinta, tapi isinya malah nyeleneh gini.



sahabatku sayang

kayak yang aku kirim di sms, aku pernah baca status pak mario teguh itu gini:

sini duduk dek, di samping kakakmu ini. tarik nafas dalam-dalam, pejamkan mata. dengarkan hanya apa yang aku katakan. "hidup ini memang tidak semudah yang mereka bilang, tapi juga tidak sesusah yang kau pikirkan"



itu berkesan banget sama aku cinto.

dulu itu aku tipe skeptis. benci sama hidup. aku nggak pernah percaya kalau hal baik bakal kejadian sama aku. apa2 yang aku lakuin justru untuk membuat diri aku percaya, karena aku nggak percaya.



jadi sayang, nggak usah terlalu dipikirin ya. inget, kamu tinggal selangkah lagi. sayang banget cinto. beribu orang loh yang kepengen kayak kamu, kamu aja nggak tau.

kalau urusan yang satu ini selesai, nanti kita pikirin lagi gimana-gimananya.



oke?



aku nggak mau kamu berfikir buruk terus cinto. hidup ini tuh kayak yang kita pikirin. kalau kita mikir hidup ini buruk, maka bakal buruklah dia. kalau kita mikir hidup kita ini baik, maka baiklah ia.



aku nggak ngambil contoh jauh2 kok cinto. diriku sendiri udah ngalamin masa itu.



yang perlu kamu inget, apapun yang terjadi, aku (insyaallah) akan ada untuk kamu. kalau aku ternyata nggak ada pas kamu butuhin, tokok aja kepala aku, terus tarik kuping aku, ingetin aku. kan nggak salah kamu kalau kamu ingetin temen yang khilaf kan??



oke cinto?

plis jangan terlalu banyak pikiran lagi.

aku nulis ini jam 12:14 loh, karena kamu nggak balas2 sms aku lagii..



tetap semangat ya cintoo!

fighting! \(~.~)/



love

^nova



trash-trash-trash!!!

You did it again
You did hurt my heart
I don’t know how many times
You… I don’t know what to say
You’ve made me so desperately in love
and now you let me down
You said you’d never lie again
You said this time would be so right
But then I found you were lying there by her side

reff: You.. You turn my whole life so blue
Drowning me so deep, I just can reach myself again
You.. Successfully tore myheart
Now it’s only pieces
Nothing left but pieces of you

You frustated me with this love
I’ve been trying to understand
You know i’m trying i’m trying
You.. I don’t know what to say
You’ve made me so desperately in love
and now you let me down

repeat reff


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trash-trash-trash!!!

Mmmm mmm yeah
Do do do do do do do-do
Ohh Yeah

Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone
Cuz right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Cuz you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore
(it's ridiculous)
It's been months
And for some reason I just
(can't get over us)
And I'm stronger then this
(enough is enough)
No more walkin round
With my head down
I'm so over being blue
Cryin over you

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Gotta fix that calender I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be

That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone
(Stupid love songs)
Dont make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
Let it go
Turning off the radio

Cuz I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

Said I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishin you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
Why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)
Why can't I turn off the radio?


trash-trash-trash!!!

aku udah lama suka sama film 'a walk to remember, sampai sekarang gag nemu juga, aku juga suka banget sama lagu ini:

ni liriknya :

"Only Hope"

[Written by Switchfoot]

There's a song that's inside of my soul
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold
But You sing to me over and over and over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
and pray to be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I know now you're my only hope

Sing to me the song of the stars
Of Your galaxy dancing and laughing
and laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that You have for me over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

I give You my destiny
I'm giving You all of me
I want Your symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs I'm giving it back

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope



keren kan??

trash-trash-trash!!!

sesuai sama judul, sudah lama sekali rasanya sejak terakhir posting. aku juga nggak tahu kapan terakhir nulis.

sebenernya beberapa waktu belakangan ini rasanya ada aja yang kepengen di posting, tapi nggak jadi-jadi. sekarang pun aku nggak tahu mau nulis apa.
oke, gini aja.
kita mulai dengan... aku jenuh kuliah!!!
kacau bener!!
padahal kuliah juga baru semestr 6.
aku nggak tahu kemana arahnya kuliah ini. buat apaan coba? rasanya gitu.

terus aku mulai beli-beli novel lagi. rasanya kalau aku terusin selama lebih kurang satu thaun kedepan, mungkin begitu tamat ntar aku bisa buka semacam rental novel gitu. amiinn...

terus aku juga mau mulai les bahasa inggris, sama belajar sendiri pake buku-buku yang aku punya. harus mulai!!

terus aku juga harus kembali mulai belajar gitar, ya Tuhan, itu udah jaman kapan gitu aku beli tuh si Gege, gag juga bisa aku mainin bahkan satu lagu (mungkin!). harus mulai lah lagi.

terus tentu aja aku harus kembali mulai nulis. Tuhann... kok bisa gitu aku se stuck ini? kapan selesainya coba?
kalau impian terbesarku tercapai, terus apa kabar dengan mamak, abak, iing? mau aku tinggal with nothing gitu? gag mungkin lah kan?

jadi kayaknya aku harus mulai menyadarkan diri untuk beberapa hal yang udah memudar.
1. kuliah (mau gag mau aku tetep harus kuliah toh?)
2. nulis! (penting banget!)
3. belajar bahasa inggris (ya lah..!!)
4. belajar gitar
5. rapi-rapi, bersih-bersih.

oke, kalau gitu, mulai dari sekarang!!!

*jadi ingat waktu aku baru masuk SMA, aku bilang "dari pada hidup berakhir, lebih menakutkan hidup yang tidak di mulai", beuh...

trash-trash-trash!!!

i just searched for my new obsession, i mean, i need it. like some thing you always thinking and make you happy when you found it.
and then, i found one thing. but... i mean, i thought it will be some one, not some thing, hehe....

i used to obsessed about Justin Bieber, but i don't. i mean, i'm writing a story that inspired by him, ok most of it right now, and it is not gonna finish until i have new thing to write. but i can't obsessed for him, i just can't. i don't know what's wrong with me. which girl in this world who not obsessed by him now? I AM!

so, here we go...

my new obsession is... FASHION!!

but not like others, i mean my others obsession, i don't really think it is a good obsession for me.

see, fashion is about 'how do you look'. and i never think about it in a whole my life before this time. see what i mean? it is not gonna working.

but then, i think again. how it is gonna be a problem? no it is not. i remember my prophet said that "hygiene is partly of faith". it is meaning that i have to concern too about "how do i look", then it will be part of hygiene, right? and then it is gonna be part of mt faith.

and i think more. if i concern about 'how do i look', then i will be prettier, right??
ahaha...
it is just one of many bonus if i do it.

i have a dream that some day i will have my own clothing line. you know? it is not gonna be working if i never concern about my own body.
if i concern about it from now, then 'one day' i just need to continue it. and i will have a very fabulous clothing line then.

my problem is, i have no money. fashion is about cost. you need more money if you wanna get better look. and if i trying to make a clothing line, i need a camera too. and i have been dream about it this all along. a DSLR camera i think.

then about my body. i have no such a good body. i am short, fat, black one. how do i can be a fashionista with that??

i don't know how it's going then. we will see.

tomorrow i get to UPI for being a flower girl, ahaha...
it is just funny a name i called my self. 'flower girl'???

if i success with that, and i got much money, may be i will try it.

just now, i try it in my tumblr. i get it a fashion-sweet thing-blablabla blog, and make this one a blog that a place i got my real mind out.

see ya later!

i messed up! didn't i??

trash-trash-trash!!!

belakangan ini aku banyak mengalami, bukan, memikirkan, hal-hal aneh.
sampai-sampai aku mendapatkan mimpi aneh-aneh juga.

semisal, naskah novelnya di tolak mentah-mentah dengan disertakan surat 'pencaci-makian' dari redaksi.

terus ada juga mimpi soal aku yang gelandangan, terus harus tidur di wc umum yang sangat menjijikkan. sedangkan untuk tidur di sana pun kami harus memiliki izin, karena berebut dengan gelandangan lainnya. akhirnya aku tahu, tahu aja, kalau adang aku, adek mama yang paling gede ternyata pejabat di daerah itu. terus anga, adek mama yang menengah, menghubungkan aku dengan adang. terus aku ke rumah adang, dan rumah adang itu keren banget!!! kayak rumah minimalis yang selama ini aku impi-impikan. lengkap dengan taman-taman di dalam rumah.

terus mimpi 'dia', keadaannya memburuk banget-banget. dia sama sekali nggak sehat.

ntah apa yang terjadi sama otakku sebenernya. kata seorang teman aku, mimpi itu hanyalah pemikiran sebelum tidur yang terealisasi ke dalam mimpi. padahal aku nggak mikir ke arah sana sama sekali sebelum tidur.

oia, sebelum mimpi yang itu, aku juga mimpi soal 'dia'. aku mimpi aku itu di rumah, di nes, di jambi, terus nggak tau dateng dari mana, ada dia. kayaknya kau bawa dia ke sana, karena aku khawatir mama dan abak dak setuju aku bawa dia ke sana gitu. terus aku masak kolak, dia temenin, yang gitu-gitu lah.

aneh-aneh aja. mimpi olla ramlan dancing in the rain, gag jelas banget.

ya lah....


trash-trash-trash!!!